// stream of consciousness

A thought along these lines has been floating around in my head for some time now.

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With all the hoopla that was 2010, I knew that 2011 had some big shoes to fill. I didn’t have expectations for 2011 to be filled with lots of travels or new experiences; turns out, what I’ve wanted out of 2011 is a sense of reassurance. A lot of the time, I find myself having thoughts that start with “Now that I’ve graduated from UT and have to deal with being an adult in the real world,…” and what I’ve learned over the last 7 months is that being an adult means you have to generate your own sense of reassurance– reassurance from no one else is satisfying enough. In some sense, I think that self-generated reassurance is a result of the fact that ‘in the real world’, no one is there to hold you accountable for anything you set out to do. Your parents aren’t around to collect your report card in the mail, your best friends aren’t always around to talk to when you need that pick-me-up [not at any fault of theirs, but 'in the real world', distance becomes an inevitability that you have to learn to navigate around].

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